Will I be able ...

... to start over, to build everything from the beginning. A completely new relation. I have to gather all my power, passion and stamina. It is really hard. It is not like when you are hungry, you go get some food. There must be something inside that is not rechargeable like the way it is as in the desire for food. How much of pain should I go through again? How many times are left before I feel nothing?

"life is a continuous flow of overcoming the difficulties"

It could have been much simpler if had paid enough attention. This time I am not going to loose the right moment.